[ While he's gotten more than enough information to get a picture of ... well, Jinx's instability to say the least, he wants more context.
So, at least he's forgiving of the flares of Jayce's frustration. ]
Whether your decision didn't target her specifically or not, she ended up in the blowback from it. I imagine that makes it feel like she was in the crosshairs. [ That said: ] What was the choice?
he knew the follow-up was coming, perhaps, but jayce just seemed to avoid answering it anyway. he gives no names— it's between himself and viktor, and they have enough strain on their trust as is. it felt too personal, at the moment.
jayce closes off, emotionally, but guilt hangs over the edges of his presence in voice. ]
Let's just say it was either take one shot or leave thousands dead. I made my choice. [ he's not going to elaborate further. ] An army happened to be in the middle of it, exaggerated the response. If it was just me, then . . . There'd hardly be more casualties.
[ the ones that were lost were lost long before he set in the final blow. he tries to bite that part of his conscience back when it echoed but they were all casualties. ]
You made your choice. [ It's not a judgment, just an affirmation. ] And she made hers.
[ A circle, broken and completed; as the Norse world serpent consuming its own tail. ]
Whether they were or weren't supposed to be there hardly matters. What was done was done.
[ And now Jayce and Jinx are living with the consequences, an escalation that in another timeline, could've been avoided entirely. Except, that's not the one they're living in, is it? ]
[ jayce doesn't exactly verbalize his agreement, but it comes through anyway, with feeling, as if his nod could be heard through tight lips and furrowed brows. ]
I told her because I wanted to be honest. Treat her differently. What she does with that, [ another shake of the head. ] it doesn't matter.
Bridges aren't built overnight. [ To expound, since he thinks he's gotten a better picture now: ] The way I see it, you were both working with a class gulf and problems that were baked into those differences. One side felt constantly trod on, retaliated, and the other side cracked down harder in response.
Rinse and repeat until it became personal. Am I off-base here?
[ jayce considers that, and not even for long— he doesn't even need to, and clearly accepts it. ]
More or less.
[ he held nothing personal to jinx, even if he could. he's simply far more aware between the two them, it seems. what she does to him, he won't throw it back to her twofold. never had jayce made a habit of grudges, and he sure as hell isn't going to keep one now.
they were victims of circumstance, and jayce was the council's perfect scapegoat. ]
On a personal level, I'm curious about the details, but—[ He lets it hang there, a spacious acknowledgement that he isn't expecting Jayce to pony that up just to satiate his curiosity. It'll just be something he tucks away for later, a puzzle to consider. ]
Thanks. For clearing all that up. I'm sure having it dredged to surface was the last thing you wanted to deal with on top of everything else.
[ a puzzle for some other time, maybe. jayce appreciates the honest answer as much as the space given. it was the right thing to do for his mental strain right now. ]
It's nothing that won't pass. [ if he, you know, ignores it, it'll be fine. he hopes. you can't really trust jinx to be readable. ] We can't afford to point fingers here for long. Just have to let it blow over, now.
[ Jinx doesn't seem the sort to simply let go of something, even if Jayce is willing to drop the whole matter. ] Dunno, some people just wanna burn it all down, consequences be damned. For everyone's sake, though, hope your assessment is right.
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[ While he's gotten more than enough information to get a picture of ... well, Jinx's instability to say the least, he wants more context.
So, at least he's forgiving of the flares of Jayce's frustration. ]
Whether your decision didn't target her specifically or not, she ended up in the blowback from it. I imagine that makes it feel like she was in the crosshairs. [ That said: ] What was the choice?
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he knew the follow-up was coming, perhaps, but jayce just seemed to avoid answering it anyway. he gives no names— it's between himself and viktor, and they have enough strain on their trust as is. it felt too personal, at the moment.
jayce closes off, emotionally, but guilt hangs over the edges of his presence in voice. ]
Let's just say it was either take one shot or leave thousands dead. I made my choice. [ he's not going to elaborate further. ] An army happened to be in the middle of it, exaggerated the response. If it was just me, then . . . There'd hardly be more casualties.
[ the ones that were lost were lost long before he set in the final blow. he tries to bite that part of his conscience back when it echoed but they were all casualties. ]
They weren't supposed to be there.
good lord this got buried in my inbox, apologies
[ A circle, broken and completed; as the Norse world serpent consuming its own tail. ]
Whether they were or weren't supposed to be there hardly matters. What was done was done.
[ And now Jayce and Jinx are living with the consequences, an escalation that in another timeline, could've been avoided entirely. Except, that's not the one they're living in, is it? ]
that's totally fine!!
I told her because I wanted to be honest. Treat her differently. What she does with that, [ another shake of the head. ] it doesn't matter.
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Rinse and repeat until it became personal. Am I off-base here?
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More or less.
[ he held nothing personal to jinx, even if he could. he's simply far more aware between the two them, it seems. what she does to him, he won't throw it back to her twofold. never had jayce made a habit of grudges, and he sure as hell isn't going to keep one now.
they were victims of circumstance, and jayce was the council's perfect scapegoat. ]
Anything else you don't understand?
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Thanks. For clearing all that up. I'm sure having it dredged to surface was the last thing you wanted to deal with on top of everything else.
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It's nothing that won't pass. [ if he, you know, ignores it, it'll be fine. he hopes. you can't really trust jinx to be readable. ] We can't afford to point fingers here for long. Just have to let it blow over, now.
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[ Jinx doesn't seem the sort to simply let go of something, even if Jayce is willing to drop the whole matter. ] Dunno, some people just wanna burn it all down, consequences be damned. For everyone's sake, though, hope your assessment is right.
I'll see you around.