Yes... Yes, it's the same feeling for me. A terrible searing, traveling backwards in the veins. Only to bring about a... painful euphoria.
[That last part was definitely something Viktor resented. There was an undeniable thrill to the shimmer, the rush of power. Feeling more alive than the dullness of existence usually provided. Intensity that made a man feel unstoppable, able to conquer anything.
Explains how he could pull all this off, if he's simply full of the stuff now. Addicted as much as any mortal man is addicted to their own blood. Simply in need of it to keep going. He's condemned Jayce to the same fate, which is cruel and yet. He's guilty, not remorseful. As he said.
Viktor shunts the first of the valves connecting them, quelling some of the flow. Monitoring Jayce's condition, reaching to press fingers into the pulse at his neck. Firmly pressed to be thorough, but still holding Jayce to be caring. Without any change in his condition, Viktor turns another closed. There's three draining himself to Jayce's body, Viktor is very hesitant on the last. He doesn't want to do this wrong, cause more suffering or simply lose Jayce all over again.
Without shimmer high and a mechanical heart to keep him at a level pulse, Viktor would have had a panic attack or nervous breakdown by now from raw stress. Much as he resents his present state of being, he also thanks his lucky stars for the resilience it grants him. He'll work up the will to turn that last valve shut. When the remaining blood finished working into Jayce, that'll be the final test. Can he... live on his own, unconnected from Viktor as a living blood bag?]
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[That last part was definitely something Viktor resented. There was an undeniable thrill to the shimmer, the rush of power. Feeling more alive than the dullness of existence usually provided. Intensity that made a man feel unstoppable, able to conquer anything.
Explains how he could pull all this off, if he's simply full of the stuff now. Addicted as much as any mortal man is addicted to their own blood. Simply in need of it to keep going. He's condemned Jayce to the same fate, which is cruel and yet. He's guilty, not remorseful. As he said.
Viktor shunts the first of the valves connecting them, quelling some of the flow. Monitoring Jayce's condition, reaching to press fingers into the pulse at his neck. Firmly pressed to be thorough, but still holding Jayce to be caring. Without any change in his condition, Viktor turns another closed. There's three draining himself to Jayce's body, Viktor is very hesitant on the last. He doesn't want to do this wrong, cause more suffering or simply lose Jayce all over again.
Without shimmer high and a mechanical heart to keep him at a level pulse, Viktor would have had a panic attack or nervous breakdown by now from raw stress. Much as he resents his present state of being, he also thanks his lucky stars for the resilience it grants him. He'll work up the will to turn that last valve shut. When the remaining blood finished working into Jayce, that'll be the final test. Can he... live on his own, unconnected from Viktor as a living blood bag?]