[ A little more tension melts from Viktor, ashamed that he'd shirk research and science but grateful that he's been allowed a little bit of space from what had just happened. He needs to process it internally, probably won't sleep the rest of the night in order to do so, but for now he can focus on the warmth of where Jayce touches him, the roughness of his hands, the cadence of his voice. ]
A bit of an understatement. [ He smiles, a bit wry and a bit self-deprecating. For so long, he's wanted Jayce to touch him, to be close to him, and yet he'd told him to stop, to let go. It had felt like the past mixing with he present as well as a selfish need to save himself from the pain, but he felt guilt for it all the same. And now Jayce was asking for something as simple as a hug? They'd been so close moments ago, and now it feels like there's a chasm between them once more.
Viktor can be the one to jump first. ]
Lie down. [ He pushes lightly at Jayce's shoulder and, if he's willing, Viktor will go down with him. Physically he's tired from the episode even if his brain is working overtime, and he wants to rest in Jayce's arms if he'll allow it. Hugging horizontally is still hugging, isn't it? ]
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A bit of an understatement. [ He smiles, a bit wry and a bit self-deprecating. For so long, he's wanted Jayce to touch him, to be close to him, and yet he'd told him to stop, to let go. It had felt like the past mixing with he present as well as a selfish need to save himself from the pain, but he felt guilt for it all the same. And now Jayce was asking for something as simple as a hug? They'd been so close moments ago, and now it feels like there's a chasm between them once more.
Viktor can be the one to jump first. ]
Lie down. [ He pushes lightly at Jayce's shoulder and, if he's willing, Viktor will go down with him. Physically he's tired from the episode even if his brain is working overtime, and he wants to rest in Jayce's arms if he'll allow it. Hugging horizontally is still hugging, isn't it? ]